Amanda Helm

Amanda Helm. I am 20 years old and I am a Social Work major. I write to breath to love to live to express to be.

Weekly Weather Forecast for – September 15th to September 21st

amandaspoetry:

MONDAY: 90% chance you will hear his name on the news, but you will not flinch this time. You will not look around the corner to see if it is him this time.

TUESDAY:  Thunderstorms outside the grocery store and in the produce sections and all the peaches will be bad.

WEDNESDAY: High of 80 degrees today and you will stop by the farmer’s market and find that peaches haven’t come in from the truck yet. You will remember the first time you learned your grandma’s peach cobbler recipe and you will grieve again.

THURSDAY: Partly sunny with a chance of staying in bed all day with a book he always criticized for being too dry.

FRIDAY: Your mom will come over today and clean your apartment for you. She will run a bath and cook you dinner and tell you that this is not the end.

SATURDAY:  98% chance that a stranger at the mall will ask for your number and you give it to them reluctantly.

SUNDAY:  When the stranger calls today, you will not answer. They will call twice and chances are they will never call again. 

and you forgot me
so suddenly that i have
forgotten myself

Amanda Helm, Haikus (33) 

i am who i am
and you cannot change me. I’m
becoming the sun

Amanda Helm, Haikus (32) 

it was like…. every time I coughed
he was escaping me somehow.
Every time I opened a door,

every time I brushed my hair

every time I exhaled…
he was leaving all over again.
I would find myself crying at the end of the night when I knew I had forgotten how he smelled or the way he said hello when he was tired or sad or angry or exuberant.
i was losing parts of him, slowly
and quickly,
always at the same time.

I remember that his birthday is in December
and the first thing he ever painted was a flower
for his mom on mother’s day.
I could probably tell you his favorite foods
and the first thought he has every morning,
but soon I will no longer remember.
Soon

even that will be gone.

Amanda Helm, Forgetting You Every Minute 

you said you loved her.
you didn’t. you never did.
How could you fake that?

Amanda Helm, Haikus (31) 

thelonelyartiste
“you dont have to find
yourself if you don’t want to. 
Find no one. Find me.” Wow, this is just too beautiful. All of them are, but this is just what speaks to me most. Thank you for your pieces. They're very lovely, and so are you. Cheers!

I am glad you liked that one. It was an interesting one to write and to feel! Thank you for the lovely message!!

I was afraid but
that is the beauty of past
tense. It’s over now.

Amanda Helm, Haikus (30)

ibecamethesun:

I wore a new skirt today and it made me happy because it was an 8 on a 1-10 pain scale today and WOW but I felt pretty so that’s a plus

I am. I am. I
sometimes forget that I am.
I always have been.

Amanda Helm, Haikus (29) 

Weekly Weather Forecast for – September 15th to September 21st

MONDAY: 90% chance you will hear his name on the news, but you will not flinch this time. You will not look around the corner to see if it is him this time.

TUESDAY:  Thunderstorms outside the grocery store and in the produce sections and all the peaches will be bad.

WEDNESDAY: High of 80 degrees today and you will stop by the farmer’s market and find that peaches haven’t come in from the truck yet. You will remember the first time you learned your grandma’s peach cobbler recipe and you will grieve again.

THURSDAY: Partly sunny with a chance of staying in bed all day with a book he always criticized for being too dry.

FRIDAY: Your mom will come over today and clean your apartment for you. She will run a bath and cook you dinner and tell you that this is not the end.

SATURDAY:  98% chance that a stranger at the mall will ask for your number and you give it to them reluctantly.

SUNDAY:  When the stranger calls today, you will not answer. They will call twice and chances are they will never call again. 

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